Stream of Conscious: Mad

Mad, Angry, Upset
Nothing is going as planned

I got the test back
And it wasn’t what I thought
Those answers
Were not the right ones

We lost the game
After our efforts to win
Playing our hardest
Sweating from the heat

She said no
When I asked
To go out

When I said why
She turned it on me
And it was my fault

Mad at my parents
And my brother
For ganging up against me

Angry with myself
For letting their words
Sink in

Tears stream down and mad
Turns to sad
Then they feel sorry
And want to make it up

It’s the opposite of joy,
Happiness,
And love

Us girls
We switch back and forth
Our emotions swirling

All of a sudden
It’s an extremity
Causing hate and despair

But when they are mad at me
It’s a whole other story

I don’t know what to do
I shiver and shake
Wanting someone else
To take the blame

Uncertain whether to back off
Or stay closer

Mad like crazy
My grandmother too
Insane is what she is

Its again leads to sadness
And hate and anger
A rush of feelings
Too much to handle